Cancer has taken away my ability to have a normal weekend
day. I feel a little bit robbed. Henry and I went to Monkey Joes and Target,
but cancer also went with us. I think
about it every other second, and talk about it every other minute. I know that this is just going to be my
normal for a while, but I don't want cancer to come with me when I am trying to
spend time with my son. I want it to be
gone.
I had another headache today. I think that it is from stress and lack of
quality sleep. It was more of a dull foggy feeling than a piercing
headache. I am also 100% sure that I
have been clenching my jaw nonstop for the past several days.
I am continuing to tell others my news, and the response
has been overwhelming. I have always
known that I have a lot of people who love me (and us), but I never really knew
the depth. We have had so many people
reaching out to us and offering their support and love. I am on numerous prayer lists at churches all
across the country. That is so
comforting to me. I am going to continue
to need the support over the next however long.
At this point, I just want answers and next steps. I want the where, the why, the how. Also, why do I keep hearing stories of young
women like me being diagnosed with breast cancer. What is going on? Is it our food, is it our environment, is it
the products that we are using? Why is
this happening?
How am I going to talk to Henry about this? What is he going to say if (when) I lose my
hair? I am sure that he will be somewhat
fascinated, but I don't want him to be scared.
I maintain my resolve to do whatever I have to do to
combat this. WHATEVER. I just want to be
better. Cancer is NOT invited to my
weekends.
I joined a survivors group on Facebook. The group is private and is only for
survivors. Though I am newly diagnosed,
the group admin said "You're already a survivor, Nancy." I am.
I am already a survivor, and I will be cancer-free in no time. This will be a minor speedbump on my path in
life.
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